Wednesday, July 2, 2008.
I completely hate school. Not because of friends. The teachers, Mr Nair, my position, what I've done for the school, everything sucks.
I've resolved not to be a prefect in Secondary school. The thing is, they will see my records of an Assistant Head Prefect and 3 stars and will probrably force me to be a prefect. I'm so sick of leading. I just want to blend in, be a normal student. A big weight off my shoulders that is.
Zhu Cheng pretty much deserved the 3 stars badge he got today. He is so much better than me, in all ways. He should deserve all the credit. It's not that I feel lousy. I did not really do anything BIG for the school at all. I just feel so sick of everything. I want to be a normal guy again.
Well good to say that my relationship with Keeve and Shanisse is getting better. Worst of all , Tee Yong and I are getting more distant (We used to be good friends; he was No.1 in my heart; i was No.2 in his) and we rarely talk. Daryl is pretty much ignoring me;and pretty much became super rude to me when the FM disc he wanted so dearly (I gave it to him) did not work. Never mind, he is rather insensitive to other people's feelings. I don't blame him.
I hate homework. I'm procrastinating everything, feeling like I'm a piece of shit. I'm guilty of not respecting Zhu Cheng, I'm guilty of becoming so talkative and insultive (towards TJ. Mr Lim heard me and scolded me). I just hate who I am.
But life has to carry on right? Pretty much, I'm not going to drown in sorrows. I just keep on pushing myself. These days between friends, things are getting better. I'm more welcomed ; probrably I'm am not so bossy, arrogant and 'high up' as before. That is the thing that is getting me moving. Friends. Without Shanisse's encouragement, I'll still be drowning in sorrows and stillcalling myself an emo freak. Without Keeve, my life would be boring and unhappy. Without Tee Yong, I dont have someone that I can joke with and share my sorrows and laughter with.
Life has never been so great.
With friends, everything is possible.Labels: friends, life
| 7/02/2008 07:31:00 PM Limited.Resolution.Potential.
